2014 goals

It’s fulfilling to have a list of goals that you want to achieve everyday, something you can look forward to doing. Like last year, I achieved almost 90% of my goals and whenever I looked at it, I feel accomplished. And now, I have a list of things I will definitely do this year.

Summer outing trip for family

I am a traveler myself and I had explored lots of places by now. One of my goals and leisure in life right now, is to share my travel experience with my family. First place we went to was Ace Water Spa in Pasig. We stayed overnight in the hotel and had a 4 hour experience in their water spa. It was really relaxing especially the hot herbal pools, calms the mind and nerves. Me and my sisters had a blast spending the night in Ace hotel and water spa that we are going back again next week!

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Me and my sisters dining out in Johnny Rockets at Shangri-la Mall

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Selfie before taking the dip

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Water world!

Second stop is Club Balai Isabel in Batangas. I had been here twice with my friends that’s why I want my family to experienced the place, too. Club Balai Isabel is a large resort overlooking Taal lake and Taal volcano. It has a hotel and villas that travelers can choose from. It has also lots of facilities like swimming pools, sports activities, spa, restaurants, etc.

I felt like a tour guide once we were there because I literally know the place. I even know how to navigate to the wet market where me and my mom bought dry and wet goods for our dinner and breakfast.

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Party all night long with my sisters and my cousin. My evil sister even took a video of me laughing continuously because I’m a bit tipsy then.

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My pretty mom ๐Ÿ™‚

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Sunny view of the Taal lake

I’m pretty sure that I will be going back to Brunei by the year end. But I’m not that excited about it because I’ve been there a lot of times. What I’m looking forward to is my dream place :). Kuala Lumpur! My dad will not be coming home for the holidays that’s why we are the ones who will be going to Brunei. I told them that we could have at least 3 days vacation on Kuala Lumpur. I even said that I’ll be paying for the first night in the hotel. I really wish that my parents, especially my dad, would allow us to go there! I want to see the Petronas towers so bad. ๐Ÿ™‚

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I so want to see you!

It’s really fulfilling to give and let others experience the leisure of travelling. That’s why its one of my goals to treat my family somewhere they haven’t go to every once in a while.

Travelling friends

I’ve been doing a lot of travelling for the past four years and I’m so lucky to have my friends in the office to go with me. We even done backpacking in Bangkok. It was really an adventure because all we had is a map! Me and my friend even got lost and the ever so reliable map helped us on our way back to the train station. So for this year, we have some places that we plan to go.

First place we went to is Puerto Galera. Two of my friends celebrated their birthday here. When you want to see the beach by the day and party at night, this is the nearest place to be near Manila. It’s just a 2 hour bus to Batangas Pier and 1 hour boat ride to the island.

We really felt the summer heat that we didn’t swam in the beach that long. We even bought booze and just took the party in our hotel.
But it was another one of our memorable moments to date.

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Best way to chill out on a summer heat! Halo-halo! ๐Ÿ™‚

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It’s a good thing the place wasn’t a bit crowded. The beach isn’t something Puerto Galera can boast about but the mix of beach and party is something we kept going back to.

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Puerto Galera sunset. Though I’ve seen it a lot of times, it doesn’t fail to mesmerize me.

Our next stop will be in Bantayan island in Cebu. I love Cebu, its the 2nd place I could live in (of course Manila is my first) here in the Philippines. Me and my family have been there a lot of times because my dad’s relatives resides there.

Bantayan island is one of the popular sights in Cebu. Can’t wait to go there in July! Hope the weather will bear with us.

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Hope to see a view like this soon!!!

I miss you even more

Inspite of everything confusing that had happened today, I’m still thankful because the least person that I never thought would approached me, talked to me. I’m happy for the both of us that we managed to talked professionally but the thing is, I miss him even more. I want to go back to how things were but I know that this is what we both need, this is what I need to set things straight. Its hurting me everyday, not talking to him, not knowing how he is and just not being with him. I wish things would just go its course and one day, I hope to wake up free from the pain of not being with him.

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Broken

It’s hard to distance yourself from someone dear to you. Everyday is a struggle to see him and not talk to him, not know how he is, not know if he’s okay or not, and just not know anything about him. But what choice do I have, if I keep on feeding myself with his time and attention I’ll just grow dependent on him and him to me as well which we both know is not healthy anymore. I know I have to keep up with this change even though it really hurts a lot. It’s like you’re being swallowed whole by the pain and you can’t do anything but cry. You’ll just feel helpless because there’s no one to help you but yourself.

Just the same

I feel really stupid at times for believing at people, knowing they are different from those who had hurt me in the past. I’m so trusting at people that in the end they end up hurting and leaving me when things get rough. I always fell to their bait, their flowery words and promises, their misleading acts and once they know they got me, they will leave me hanging. I feel betrayed and hurt. But I guess its my fault as well because I trusted them. I should have known better because this had happened a lot of times. Not all people have good intentions, not all people care and not all people can keep up with you when the going gets rough. Such a shame, I thought its different this time.

Remember what you deserve

I know I deserve the best there is in life in everything. I even said it to my ex that he doesn’t deserve me. But right now, I am settling for less than what I really deserve.

I know mending one’s self should be done by you only. Yes, you could seek help and advice from friends but everything should be done by you. I was on the right track from the start though it was really hard because I was never used to it. All was well then I took a turn. At first everything was going smoothly, I was able to cope more easily but things have gotten so deep that it was hard to escape. Everyday I kept on digging deeply that climbing up to escape is really hard now. I want to say that I never asked for this but saying it won’t do anything right now. I’m here in this situation right now that I know from the start is risky but still I went through it. It’s all my fault that I took the wrong turn, that I didn’t put my walls high, that I trusted my broken heart to someone who at first mend it then eventually broke it apart again and that I am in this situation right now.

And now, even though I know how to escape, I just can’t. I’m just so stubborn and trusting that’s why people always take advantage of me. I know somewhere in time I should put a stop to this, maybe not now but I know in time everything will just stop and go back to where its supposed to be.

I deserve better and I’m saying this again, I should not be settling for less than what I deserve. And he’s not definitely that someone.

Challenges and leisure ahead

I was busy last Saturday filling up my calendar with work and leisure activities. It feel so great to look forward to something everyday because you know that you will accomplish something at the end of the day. It may not be a success at first but at least you’ve try to do something about it.

This year, I feel like I will really be moved out of my comfort zone because there are a lot of responsibilities that calls for it. I know I must take on it if I want to achieve the goals I set on for myself. Though its nerve wrecking at first, eventually I will get used to it and who knows, that is where I am good at. Thankfully I have a supportive boss and group of friends, who always got my back. My boss had believe on me from the start he took over the team. He always pushes us to do something challenging every now and then and he really believes that we can do it. Lots of professional challenges ahead and I’m so excited to take on it!

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Busy weekend

I’ve done a lot of things this weekend. First of, I’ve conquered the treadmill for 30 minutes. It’s like my body is used to it that running on it for 30 minutes is just a piece of cake. I love that feeling that you’re sweating a lot from exercising and when you look in the mirror, you’ll just be amaze! Yeah, I’m so loving the slow transition of my body. I have lots of travelling to do this year which needs wearing bikinis that’s why I really need to work my ass off! Second thing I’ve done this weekend was iron all our clothes. Every time I woke up in a weekday morning, I’m frustrated because I can’t find anything to wear because all of them have not been ironed. That’s why I took the liberty of ironing all our clothes this weekend and it was really tiring. I can’t even move my right hand this morning because of the tons of clothes that I’ve ironed. Lastly, I’m trying my best to get my mind off someone that’s why I kept on switching from on task to another this weekend. I don’t want to just sit and bother my mind off that someone and not do anything productive. I just miss him that’s all but I won’t stop myself from doing anything productive everyday. Our small talks doesn’t suffice. I need to see him because I really miss him so much. *Sigh*

Well tomorrow is another day and its MONDAY!! Need to catch some sleep or I’ll be late again!